seriously, a whirlwind has decided to dance with me.
a flurry of choas and activity has decided to take me for a spin and is enjoying itself so much it might never set me back down.
The gusts come with gusto, and respiration fills one with inspiration. But truely it can be a bit much to take.
If all goes well I will get the much needed pay check on thrusday and then I can go settle some things for now. Then comes the wait for the next week where I can take care of the last of a list of things and get myself current. Then comes the wait for the next week so that I can throw it at the encrouching chaos that threatens to pounce. It will probly be a few more checks after that before I'm settled out for good.
But if all goes as planned it really will be for good, or at the very least the better. And it's always nice to know I have those who care for me and offer to help out. I may have to suck it up at some point and take advantage of that offer, but for now I will stubbornly insist I trying on my own and seeing if my plotted course can really bring me through just above that point of desperation.
It can be hard, but it's also rewarding to know that in these situations that have other people wonder how I even do it, I can really see the value of planning and preperation that I've layed down as my contingencies. I'm crazy but I'm not reckless.
oh and I've been called a "sower of discord", I like it, it has a nice ring to it. I shall have to put it on a T shirt AND WEAR IT WITH PRIDE. Didn't mean to type in caps but I like it and thus shall post it as such.
Take care of yourselves.
Roving Jack
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I always liked 'harbinger of chaos' myself. I myself? I am the Instigator. I instigate. It's fun.
Speaking of discord... I've been looking at Amazon's selection of Geek dice. If that doesn't sow chaos, I don't know what does.
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