Thursday, November 26, 2009

yummy burps

man I cannot tell you how nice the taste of roast garlic and red pepper pesto that I made to season the poultry this thanksgiving is. I cannot eat much in the way of certain foods and I eat very much the same foods over and over, due to not having a lot of options.

Even when I do try something differant it's important to try very tiny amounts and to proceed carefully and not do anything new for a while afterwards.

But I figure I've got time off and it's a holiday. So...

Take one red pepper and five cloves of garlic. clean the pepper of seeds and stem, put the garlic into it drizzle a bit of olive oil into the pepper and tightly wrap it in foil. put it in the oven at 350 (or 400) for about an hour. rotating it a bit every twenty mins to help it get the oils and shifting the materials around.

when it's done let it sit to cool down still tightly wrapped. You can just peel the skin off the pepper and garlic with ease.

pour the oil into a food processor and toss in the pepper and garlic add a bit of kosher salt and oil as you blend it. You can make it a bit thicker with less oil or more saucey with more. finer processing or courser to taste.

you might be able to use it as a pasta sauce or a condement in a sandwhich, or rub it over meats or veggies.

you can also add a tablespoon of it to a bit of water to make something of a broth which you can cook your meat in or add to a stuffing.

I cooked a chicken breast in a broth of this and it gave enough flavor for me to enjoy the flavor and I still taste it hours later... yummy burps.

take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Semiurgent regroup

Okay after way more stress and drama then I like in my lfe, I expected to sort of just be done with it all. Apparently most people don't change direction that easily.

So I'm looking at making adjustments and allowances in things to take some of this into account.

Poeople of the Clear Waters will be updated before the weekend pending access to a scanner. It's the latest I've ever been on that, so I do feel guilty a bit but I suppose that's not going to help.

Goober should go live on time tomorrow If fate hold.

The lady of the mechanism is up already.

I'm making some things for peoples to eat for thanksgiving. And laying the foundations for a few projects from my master list over the next few days.

I'll be working on the rapier and ordering the materials for delivery in the nexts week or so.

But mostly I'll be writing. The stories I started with are bacck burnered as they are serioes and dramatic and tense... and right now I wanna be silly, snarky and play.

So the new stories are the second chapter of the super hero (in training) hermaphrodite named Runcible. And a story that involves a magic bikini. It's all really rather fun and weird.

So yeah that's the update for now.

Take care of yourself,
Roving Jack

Sunday, November 22, 2009

I worry about you sometimes

Serirously, I know life can be hard on people and life for both of us has been hard in general and in recent months. That's partly why I worry about you so much right now.

I've done my best to help where I can and should, if it were somebody else other than someone I lived with I'd do more, but as it stands it is not my place to help further.

You used to talk about being optemistic and posative, and now you withdraw and assume the worst.

The hardest thing about the whole situation is you get so upset at the slightest thing, that minor annoyances that are worth of a roll of the eyes and statement of your preferrances from now on in similar situations, have caused you panic, anger and depression. What's more is people who actively help and do their best to both sympathize and solve the problem become target.

Being angry is okay, being upset is okay, but then find a way to solve what caused the problem. Usually the answer doesn't involve fighting or running away. This fight or flight response to simple things may be a sign of something serious that nobody should try to hide or deal with alone.

Lashing out in frustration at others simply because they are not as upset, or don't see things from your point of view is like lashing out at a dog because it's in your way.

The thing I worry about most is that you'll convince yourself that you are unhappy with the people arouind you and the places you are in, and run away or push away... only to find some other place and some other people you are unhappy with and do it again, and again, and again. When the problem is that you are unhappy. Changing places and faces won't change that.

People who care can help you through rough spots but they not involnerable to lashing out.

I guess I'm just asking you to

take care of yourself,
Roving Jack

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I'm angry,

and tired, mostly tired, but stil angry.

I don't ask much, I rarely say no when I'm needed. But one thing I ask for myself is to participate in Nanowrimo, script frenzy and my convention.

A grand total of sixty three days out of a year, where I would like five to six hours of those days to myself, to write and do things I'm passionate about.

So how is it that I've not been give one stinking minute to do this.

What's worse, I've had to deal with stupid crap that really isn't my problem but it somehow becomes my problem. I've had six hours of sleep in the last 68 hours, and of all the rest of that time do you think I've been able to do something that I should have been able to start in the first of this month. Something I plan for the whole year to do. No!

I'm bloody serious you all just need to leave me alone. If somebody I know isn't bleeding to death or on fire, leave me the heck alone and take care of it yourselves. Really, the world got alone before me, and it won't stop turning when I die, maybe just maybe it can get along fine without me for a little while.

Take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack

Monday, November 16, 2009

I'm looking at a lot of work to do

If I pull off my nano goal for this year it will be a miracle of muse magic. It's still doable, sort of... I think. Is it possable to pull off four consecutive days of 12-14 thousand words... twice?

anyway when I cross the deadline this year I think achieving anything would be impressive give the amount of stuff I had to deal with.

But a part of me wonders if I had actually gotten started on time where would I be? I mean shooting for 150k in what amounts to 15 days now. Imagine if we used the whole 30 days this hard and to their fullest. Could I really get 300,000 words under my belt in a month.

I'm pretty sure at some point I'd go start raving sane and have to give up my plans. That's a fairly severe level of voluntary brain damage.

I've heaard that there are professional writers that don't do anywhere near that volume, but then there are those that do more then that. The question is how much of that is scrapped and how much is used, how much is edited or rewritten vs created from scratch?

I've got to take care of my webcomic tonight, then get back to writing. Then bed (mmm that sounds good, I had trouble sleeping last night and thus got only 4hrs sleep) then wake up early to take care of the cable internet install at the apartment. Then write a bit and grocery shop before work. Then thanksgiving dinner at the Uni. Then writing then sleep and then writing and work and then writing and sleep. Then some time off from work to whole up and write almost nonstop for four days before going back to work.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack

Saturday, November 14, 2009

MMM sleepy

my body has been craving sleep and enforcing that on me of late. It been long dreamless sleeps for the most part and I've been alternating five hour sleeps with the nine and ten hour sleeps without any seeming ryhme or reason.

It's turning out to be rather inconveniant.

I've got writing to do and a few other projects to attend to. could we maybe crash later.

Even tonights Social gathering was less cooky then usual, I fear we didn't shock or offend anywhere near as many people as usual.

I'll do better next time.

It did bring back a few old weird ideas and revive my intrest in a few others. The four pink socks of the apocalypse needs to be worked on soon, and also sowing chaos and dischord.

But writing is the big one right now and taking care of the raipier hilt design and construction. once we've done some of that I can ... finish a thought apparently. Whatever. I need to get out of here and go take care of some things.

Take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

way too much to do,

and not enough time to do it in.

Trying to get the rest of the move in stuff taken care of. and I'm not talking unpacking yet.

Mostly just get the TV, internet and what have you taken care of. The eletric is good and the heat not a problem. Gas for the stove is full but we need to figure out that stuff too.

Utilities are going to be split three ways, so they won't be all that expensive. It's just getting together and making the arrangments and then schedualing the set up and waiting on the service providers to do it all.

I've got another day of work and then I can focus on a whole day of writing and what not.

Take care of yourselves.
Roving jack

Monday, November 9, 2009

Twenty days left

Bussiness cards ready for final touch and approval and I gotta see if I can source some copper sheet metal for a project in the next week. I'll do the research for that bit tonight. Then update PotCW tonight. Prep and save blog entries for my blogs.

That way I won't have to pay attention to anymore stuff for the rest of the week and I can focus on just doing the novel writing.

Twenty days for 50,000 words would be easy enough, Heck even 100k would be do-able.

But in my standard way of doing things I've set myself the goal of 100k of new novels and an additional 50k of finishing old novels and revision.

Sorta wish I'd used the first ten days better. D'oh.

I'll keep ya posted.
Take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Today on the procrastination list

While I'm wasting time, I decided to clean out my in boxes in my e-mail accounts.

Some 6 thousand e-mails later I'm mostly done. Mostly as in maybe another 2000 to get rid of.

Part of the inspiration for that was that a few times recently I've managed to not be able to find a few e-mails that I needed. One was an art design I needed for a comission (albeit a tiny one of a few dollars), which I just resent because I couldn't find it. The other is a series of links for suppliers for materials I need for projects. I know I sent it to myself in an e-mail, I just can't seem to find it and may have to surrender to the fact that it's gone and I'll have to hunt up a new list of suppliers.

I'm still at a startling 2000 words for this currant Nanowrimo. Though I have reread my first nano winner through. It gave me some mixed feelings.

It was definately not as good as I remember it, with too much narration and even that wondered from the point too often or failed to communicate the concept properly at times.

It was also way too focused on "and thens". Meaning that it was racing from one tense scene to another.

The good news is I can now look at the story and butcher it. Cut it into meal portions. Those narration parts could be turned into story sequences that "show not tell" the story. Which will only help to space out the tension and racing pace a bit more.

Some good things I noticed thus far is that the characters seem well defined and consistant, and the story concept kept me wanting to follow it to it's conclusion.

The end needs a huge rewritethough.

It also helps me to see these things and realise that a novel can be written and clumbsy at first draft and still bring into being a good finished product after redrafting and editing. Which gives me permission to just plow through the writing of my current two.

That really is the point of nanowrimo. To get it done no matter how sloppy and then fix it. Because to apologise and make amends is easier than getting permission. essentially if you wait to get everything perfect and try to get approval at every step of the way you will never get anywhere in writing.

Barf it up all over the page and then feel embarrassed, apologetic and then make it better. Because once it exists the rest is just fixing. and we all know books and movies that where bad, but could be fix if...

That's my thought for the day. Now I'm off to update Goober nice to Meep you. Set up some info for updating the people of the clear waters again. Then Get home and ready the next PotCW for scan and post tomorrow. Then read a bit of my past novels and mark them up with pens. Plan my writing my new novels out for tomorrow and get my food ready for work and then get some rest.

Tomorrow I've got to mail something and then head to work. Update a comic and then it's writing time, serious this time. I'm going to push hard. My hope is that by the end of the month I will have on the order of 150,000 words and possably more saved up. One part of which will be a better if not final draft of "For want of an Anchor".

Another part of it will hopefuully be a finished draft of "Dear me, You have forgotten yourself. Love You."
I really hope to not have to redraft that one as the style is very destinct and I think integral to the story. But Lets get it done, then give it a year so that when I go back over it I will be able to tighten it in any place it needs it.

And then of course I'll have two new novels. Last years Novels will be on the repair list for next year. Though I will likely scrap one of them and focus on finishing "Attirs War".

That's not mentioning script frenzy. I've got to think about those during april. I've got at least three favorites that could use a redraft and cleanup. Then It's time to start shopping some of these around.

See you maybe tomorrow.
Take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack

Saturday, November 7, 2009

I have

I have a new winter coat.

I have a place to live.

I have food.

I have water.

I have income.

I have a car.

I have clothes.

I shall not starve or thirst, I shall not face cold or rain. I shall be able to come and go. I shall have money to maintain these things.

My time now is set aside to work on Nanowrimo. Please life, let me enjoy this challenge for myself. I want to do this.

As crazy as it sounds this is my vacation. I do it twice a year, and then I spend a week in connecticut each year.

This isn't asking much. I still get up and go to work, I still get and prepare my food. I still clean up after myself and this year I will still be doing a few other side projects. But Let me call my muses in and we can sit and work on having adventures in far off places that have differant rules from our world. Let me get to know people there and spend days and weeks in the journies and excitement that happens in those hours I am off adventuring.

I want to play with my brains plasticity and test my limits as a writer and story teller. I want to feel so very tired and as if I've spent months or even years away from my life when only a few short weeks have gone by.

I want to celebrate doing something so crazy as to have written 150,000 words of novels in a month. I want to stand at the finish link in awe and say, "Holy crap! I bloody did it!" and whoop out loud.

I will uncork all the bottles and let my muses out, with their kin to celbrate and ride the creative high of it all. Then crash for a week and some sleep as time rushes to catch up with me.

So Life this is my request and my notice. I'm going on my adventure, please send all forwarding mail and excitement to some time after the first week of december when I'll have recovered from it all. Nothing so urgent is going on that I cannot let it stand for a time.

Take care of yourselves,
Rovingjack

Friday, November 6, 2009

Just for fun

Let's wait until I'm ready to head out and use public access computers to really get writing, and surprise me with the door knob breaking and effectively making the front door locked and unusable.

Then I can use the time I should be enjoying the struggle to build momentum toward a truely marathon like writing spree, to instead disassemble a door knob and get the door to usable so that I can leave and get here to write... after I look up contact data on internet providers for our area so that this gets taken care of asap.

And so instead of eight hours of time to work on this I get less then four.

And then for giggles lets remember that I have to go to one more possable store that may actually stock bulk quantities of one of the foods I can eat. So I don't have to buy five bags when one larger bag would be more ecconomical and easier to deal with.

But that's okay, because tomorrow while I'm searching for that I can look into the doorknob situation. Rather then trust that a locksmith that pulled this one over on the landlord and the easily flustered and confused landlord to take care of this all. I can price the right parts and swap them in myself for a quarter of what was charged for the job that just fell to peices.

Grumble grumble.

Take care of yourselves,
Rovingjack

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Luck sir, but not as we know it.

Sir we discovered luck... but I've never seen it's like before.
It's luck alright but not as we know it.

Is it good luck or bad luck to be getting your previous writings together and find that over ten thousand words of it are missing from your thumb drive... and then dig through your emails to find the copies of each individual addition saaved to emails you've sent yourself.

Is it good luck to have a huge task before you and schedual that uses every last second to get through it planned and ready to execute... only to be asked to pick up an extra day at work.

I mean I'm pretty sure I can work with either way on the latter case but it's just one of those, why now moments that comes along.

Seriously universe, what drives you to test my resolve so very much.

Right well I've got a holy butt load of stuff to do and not enough time to do it in, So I'm going to break out my super powers and see what I can make of this mess.

Take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Blargh

a bit of a crumbly start. I've got to sit down and figure out where this is all going tonight so that I can come in early tomorrow and get to work before work on the novels, and then again after work.

As it is I'm going to have to binge hard this weekend to get myself back up to where I need to be word count wise.

I know I wrote 100,000 words last year in just over half a month. I'm a little unclear how exactly I pulled that off, but it does suggest that I can do what I've set myself this year.

Here is hopeing I have some great successes tomorrow and through the next several days.

Take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack

Monday, November 2, 2009

Fun Fun Fun

I wore a costume, saw folks I havn't seen in like forever. I even got some much needed sleep.

Now the move is over, and it's time to get back to my life.

I've a sword to make, bussiness cards to make for somebody, a few props to make, webcomics to maintain, word puzzles to make and compile, jewelry to make, a few other goals for the years master list, and Nanowriom has now officially started.

My goal this year is again bigger than last years. Two novels like last year. Finish the inspirational one I started as my first ever nano novel, Edit and redraft my first ever completed novel from the same year.

Then to relax and unwind I will unpack my room at night, prepare the next days food, clean up a bit. thursdays will have to be errand days I think.

That way I get out and get things done in less traffic and crowds, but I'll still do some writing then too. I'm fairly sure there won't be a single day where there will be less then a thousand words written this month after tonight.

Busy crazy fun.
take care of yourselves,
Rovingjack