Hardening plastic or threshhold

I'm sure I owe a bit more on the front of story in the connecticon and such but theres been something that's been on my mind lately.

Some of you know me and interact with me enough to doubt what I'm about to say, because well it seems improbable for some. Just keep in mind it's all relative.

I'm a creative sort, I long ago discovered the wonders of the plasticity of the human brain. and I play with my brain.

It's one of the true pleasures in my life to be able to change my mind, literally. From pondering hard science to devising a story or joke based on word play, to creating images so abstract that they border on madness enducing.

I flip from one to the other with relative ease and joy, trying new things as if i've been practicing them for a while (mainly because I have, in my head) and thinking of things to try that others never even though of before.

Example range from deep fried origami to glass resists in the soldering step of stained glass to give added control to laying down the beaded solder.

These ideas get laugh and praise by others, and it's heartening to know there is some appreciation of these idea, no matter how uncomfortable with praise I can often be.

But lately I've noticed something that sort of worries me. I don't know what causes it...

Is it that I've got so much on my plate now that I've found the limits to my plasticity, my brain simple saying this far and no farther (until at least we clear a bit of this up to make more room). Or is it a sign that I am loosing that ability all together.

Things that used to come to me in a snap sometimes don't come to me right away, and changing directions and gears is more likely to be more bumpy now then it has in the past.

Am I loosing it, or have I found my threshhold. Is this something I can force myself past, like moments past.

For All I know it's just some blip in my path, but ...

I don't know, I'm sure it kind of seems silly. But imagine for a second that you live your life as is right now, and you have the ability to levitate half an inch off the floor. Some people are amazed some can't imagine what real use it would be, but through it all it's something you are proud of about yourself.

you play at it and experiment with it, for more time and differant positions, but one day you find that you arn't able to increase the amount of time, and another you falter while doing something you've done a hundred times before.

What would you do at that moment? Might you post your random stream of thought to the web to vent them?

I don't know, it's stupid, but there it is,
take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack