Okay I’ve really got to start using my lists of things I need to do. I get things written down and then pursue them haphazardly. I’ve been working on a simple panelist application template for connecticon for months now, where as in a few days I breezed through my studies of elementary mathematics. That seems a bit backwards.
I’ve just got to spend a few hours finishing my pinhole camera and taking some pictures, but somehow I manage to do everything but that. And since I’m prepping to do another message in a bottle by the end of the month I understandably found myself reading my book on Egyptian hieroglyphics despite needing to get going and even being interested in getting going on Sumerian cuneiform.
I need to go through and prioritize these tasks. Set up a day to be my polish off day, where several tasks needing only an hour or so of time to finish off can be done. That could clear my plate some and then I can get down to the goals that require sustained efforts.
The other thing I need to work on is my cringe factor. I know that getting two or three of these things done simply require me to commit and move forward, so why do I flinch back from completing them. It’s like my book of hand drawn mazes over on bookhabit.com. I only needed 120 in total to put them up on the web (granted I hadn’t found bookhabit.com yet) but at the rate of one maze a day I flinched over and over again until I had more than twice what I needed before I managed to make myself do it.
This sort of self sabotage is simply unacceptable. I am not going to have the future of my projects and adventures derailed by such absurdities. And it’s slowing everything else up.
These little bottlenecks keep forming and that doesn’t help me much at all. Sigh. Maybe I’m being a bit hard on myself with that. But it’s hard not to be. I mean I know these things are doable, and they all interest me enough to start. It should just be a matter of tying things up and letting go to be free to move on to other projects if I’ve lost interest, but I haven’t lost interest yet I avoid them.
Hmm, maybe I just stumbled on the point. Perhaps I don’t want to be done with them. Who says blogging never help anyone?
Anyway, I’ve got to get some things square before I close out here for the night. I will NOT post Until Monday night (remember that you day time folks should look on Tuesday unless you plan to watch for midnight posts) because any time I do get will be used to take care of a few of the things I have committed myself to tidying up. Monday Night will have the information on how to support me in this year’s Nanowrimo.org fundraising.
Until then Take Care of yourselves.
Roving Jack
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Good luck! I get the same way with my projects, it seems like the more I NeeD to do something, the more nervous I am about doing it. We just gotta push through. I just tell myself: "It's nerves, nothing more...I CaN do this!" and push through it!
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