Self awareness

Last night I was in my tiny room, having just finished making a hand drawn maze, listening to Vivaldi’s The Four Seasons (Le quattro stagioni Concerto No. 1 in E major, Op. 8, RV 269, "La primavera" (Spring) coming out of a stereo that somebody had thrown out because the CD player was not working (which I fixed in five minutes). I’d just started to do some reading in my copy of works of Nietzsche and it dawned on me. I’m such a nerd.

This isn’t exactly a revelation to me. But it was a kind of nice moment. That sort of feel good, after a warm shower on a cold winter’s night sort of feeling. A warm fire and comfortable living space (and maybe not having an illness that precludes hot chocolate) would be the only thing I could think of that would have made that any better.

I get moments like this from time to time, but usually they involve feeling terribly alone. That moment when you want to talk excitedly about developments on the cutting edge of scientific research, or ancient cultures, languages or mythology; only to realize that there is nobody around you who shares these interests.

Now I’m not saying I like Nietzsche, I’ve only read some of his early stuff so far and for the most part he doesn’t exactly strike me as terribly profound (might have something to do with how modern culture has taken much of his thoughts into itself, it’s sort of ubiquitous now) and some of his statements are a bit less then respective of certain people (though it was interesting to see that it was not the case in areas I had expected to see it, he’s been horribly miss used). But I suppose it is a product of the time gap between us and him.

I am saying that the violins were wonderful to hear. It has been quite some time since I listened to some classical music and I am definitely going to put that radio station in my cars sound system. I wasn’t all that fond of the Chopin piano following it but that was short and was followed by a Mozart so it was good enough.

It was really just a momentary awareness of who I am, and a pleasure in being an explorer of sorts. Finding deep, rich corners of my world and enjoying their beauty.

And while the Nietzsche will come to an end soon I think the classical music is likely to stay for a bit, while I continue to work on my projects.

Speaking of which I will put up a post either tomorrow or by Friday night. Then hopefully another by Saturday night. Unless you are a night owl like myself, your best bet is to look for the posts on Saturday morning and Sunday morning. If you’re a late nighter then keep an eye out for midnights on fri and sat.

Until then, Take care of yourselves.
Roving Jack