Much going on

I have much going on right now, some is secretive and mysterious. Some not so much.

I'm guilty a little of my famous procrastination tonight, but it's sort of a reward for getting a fair amount done this weekend and also building energy to help me get more done over the next few days.

I've got some big things happening so Keep your eyes on the site and hopefully you will be pleasantly surprised by the direction things go in the next two weeks. I'm really stepping out past any point where I've gone so far and it's a bit exciting... and unnerving.

I've given it some thought and it one of those things that is hard to explain; but I will try.

Think about a great actor or writer that comes immediately to mind, now think of yourself. You may see the comparison as almost two differnt species. Actors are actors and I'm just sort of me. I may like acting and I might even be decent at it, but I'm not an actor. Acting is something I do, not who I am.

Well this is the sort of thing I'm facing now. Most of my life I've had idea after Idea and even creative project after creative project. But always at the end of the idea or project it is set in the closet. Because creativity is something I do not who I am. Only lately have I come to realise that those actors , or writers or creators are people too. As real and complex and flawed as I. They are not the archetypes we set up on pedastals, they are just people. They may have skills I don't and they may have talents I have yet to learn but that doesn' t mean I can't be an actor, writer and creator too.

It sound silly but this really is a difficult idea to grasp. That moment where I'm standing with well over 280 hand made mazes in hand and the idea of making a book of 120 them to sell online, but not being able to take that next step because it crosses over into a territory that makes me feel like a trespasser.

So now I'm faced with a bit of a leap of faith, and it's the hardest kind of faith. Faith in myself. It's picking up a new mantel, a new identity. And in true Roving Jack style I've not made it any easier on myself by choosing more then one leap of faith to make at a time.

Funny thing though. I know I can do them, and I know I can survive coming up short on a few if that should happen. I should even be able to transmute short falls into not only landing on my feet but finding a sweet spot that I otherwise would have missed.

So With these realisations in hand I'm making some leaps over the next two weeks and I'll keep you all posted on just where they take me.

Ready, Set, Jump...

take care of yourselves,
Roving Jack