I'm a nut

It occurs to me that just occasionally I'm a bit off from normal.

Which can be immensly fun at times.

Like walking through the hardware store looking for just the right bits and bobs to finish a project and then having a carpenter ask what you are making because they will recommend a good material for the project. And the blank stares that result when you tell them in a conspiritorial whisper that you are making a ray gun.

Or looking all sad and when asked why you tell somebody that you really wanted to finish the young womans head in a jar in time to show it at the convention but other things are in the way and you just won't have time to devote to it.

Not to mention clockwork fairies and alchemical processes.

Sometimes it can be fun to talk about and surprise people with these project ideas... but there are times it's sort of teadious too. So I just sort of sigh "Nothing".

There are also moments where I catch myself about to share some of these things and realising that it's likely to just get a snort or a head shake at best and comments about too much time and "why?", or even not so subtle redirects about doing something more productive or not being so childish.

It's times like that I find myself realising exactly how outside everything I can sometimes be.
For all the wonders to be found by taking the road less traveled it's a bit saddening at time to realise that not only has nobody broken the trail for you, but there very likely will be nobody to follow behind.

But having tasted the fruits of these foriegn lands returning to the others seems like staring at a washed out old photograph, lacking in vibrant and wild colors and textures.

We really are from completely seperate worlds. As much as they cannot fathom my silly musings and projects I cannot thrive in the mundane world and it seems that the gap gets harder to bridge as time goes by.

What will come of me in the future?

Will I venture out so far one day that I never return and just sort of pinch out of reality?

Take care of yourselves.
Roving jack