Struggles

I know that while I'm struggling a bit with the writing I can bring it back and recover, even to the point that I might have fun and exceed my goals personally. But the lack of donations is a disappointment I can't do anything about right now. And the message in a bottle is out of my hands but gone from the world as near as I can tell. There is no sign it's gone anywhere.

I've not heard feedback on my maps that I posted to show to others online. I'd hoped to make some for gamers and novelists, as a start of a commission based arts idea.

My first try at having one of my panels outside of the convention netted me two hours by myself in a book store, good reading time but I could have been doing other things, saved the gas and not had to make the trip.

I have some ideas on what went wrong but it still doesn't help the feeling of failure. I need a pick me up of some kind.

That's partly why I came back to the Craftsmens fair today. Yesterday I had some fun talking and watching and getting ideas, I took a paper making class. So that has helped. Creating things, learning new skills, and getting new creative ideas are soothing but it doesn't completely salve the feeling of struggle and failure on my part. Hopefully I can turn this around in the next few days, and get some things done.